there are many times that i simply feel inadequate for something that i should be adequately equipped to handle.
i find myself repeating the same struggles multiple times without seeing any progress towards where i want to be [as a person].
much like the child i spoke of in a previous entry last week, i know where i need to be, but i must admit that i am comfortable where i am at right now [thank you very much].
sure, i’ll screw up – time and time again, but it is in those screw ups that i find something familiar – despite how i feel afterwards.
i can’t allow myself to slip off into a feeling of acceptance of where i am at.
i need to want to improve…
…and i don’t know how.