i’ve been thinking a lot lately about who i want to be and who i actually am.

i feel as though i can totally relate to this guy who lived many years ago named paul who said something like, “i do the things i don’t want to do, and the things i want to do, i don’t do” [paraphrased by me].

and i feel stuck.  willing and weak, both at the same time.

annie dillard, in her work tickets for a prayer wheel, asked to be taught how to pray:

if God does not tire, still
we may tire of longing.
pray this prayer:
receive our prayer.
teach us to pray, teach us to pray, to pray, pray.

[and throughout the poem in multiple other occasions]

where am i going with this?


i don’t know.

i guess what i’m trying to say is that whenever i think of you or even just comment on your weblog, i say a quick prayer for you.

remember, i’m rooting for you – in my own little corner of the pacific northwest.

i’m not one to post a great deal of scriptural references on my blog, but from time to time something speaks to me:

so, chosen by God for
this new life of love, dress in the wardrobe God picked out for you:
compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength, discipline. be
even-tempered, content with second place, quick to forgive an offense. forgive as quickly and completely as the Master forgave you. and
regardless of what else you put on, wear love. it’s your basic,
all-purpose garment. never be without it.
– colossians 3:12-14 (the message)

happy friday, friends.

5 thoughts on “

  1. brad and i have liturgy books filled with ancient prayers of the church and have been learning to pray with those. i think we always need to be learning to pray and allowing that discipline to mold us into the people of God. grace to you guys as you go on that journey.

  2. Thank you for that reassurance. :) And I like how you phrased that about Paul.
    In Tickets for a Prayer Wheel, have you read the one about the shape of air around objects? That’s my favorite of hers in that book.

  3. Hits home, my friend. Excess scripture and all
    (Jealousy) I want that book… I love Annie Dillard, but I’m practising book buying self-restraint since I’ve returned from the Old Country…

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