grace (eventually)

“you need to give yourself more grace” my counselor once told me as i was heading out his office after a session. “God has given you more grace than you give yourself.”

“damn, that’s huge”, i thought to myself as i exited.  “i am hard on myself.”

i have a wonderful little device that tracks my daily steps called fitbit flex – it’s a small device that you wear on your wrist and go about your day while it tracks your daily activity (the idea is to get in 10,000 steps a day, minimum) – anyway, long story *very* short, my fitbit gave up the ghost the other day.  after sending a few emails back and forth with the manufacturer in an attempt to troubleshoot, they apologized for my device no longer working and suggested that i return it to the original point of purchase – only problem being, i no longer had the receipt.

i shot them back another email and apologized that i no longer had the receipt, but that i knew the day i purchased the item and where it was purchased.  (i had purchased it at target – on black friday – when that whole mess that you’ve no doubt read about started).  i couldn’t even go to target with my debit card to do a receipt look up because i no longer had that debit card thanks to, well, certain circumstances…

i received an email back from fitbit saying that they would make an exception as they could verify when i set up my online account with them and activated my device, so they would send me a replacement free of charge.

relief.

& then i was hard on myself.

i began internally berating myself, “why didn’t you keep the receipt? you’re normally so good at that!”

i confessed this negative self talk to my friend right away and she told me in a loving, friend-like way to, “let it go! it’s taken care of!”

i’m still soaking in her reply, still trying to *really* believe that it’s all okay, that this was only a bump in the road and not a major roadblock.

i’m still learning how to give myself grace for not being more put together.  i’m still learning to give myself grace and believe that i do not have to be perfect.

i’ll get there (eventually).

traveling mercies,
jdh

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